Thanks for your note, Elizabeth. I see a general fogginess around your lower middle that feels quite rigid. It’s about six inches to a foot out from your form, which tells me two things: one, that your chakra system is functioning well, overall (were it not, the fog would be in your form rather than a bit out from it), and two, this fog is connected to the second chakra. The second chakra is, generally speaking, the point that we manifest our desires. When we don’t, the result is defensiveness, resentment, anger, bitterness. When I ask to see the source of this fog, I see you in your mother’s womb.

The Etheric Field

This fog has served you well in many cases, energetically thwarting unwanted relationships, advances, situations, almost without effort. It has enabled you to draw boundaries and know you would be protected. The thing is, this fog has been deflecting wanted interactions and situations, as well. Instead of culling through boundaries and what is wanted with your higher awareness, it has been done reflexively through this sacral shield. In the course of interacting with your High Self and guides in this journey, the fog was released; however, I feel that because so many of your decisions have redirected through it, learning to pass that process up to your higher awareness will be what releases it permanently.

Your energetic insight into yourself is keen enough to feel when this fog is in place, thus to know when you are not approaching a boundary or choice from higher insight. I think you could still do some visualization of allowing earth energy to flow up the chakra system and out the crown, drawing higher energy into the crown and down the chakras, through your soles. My sense, though, is that the energy work aspect of this is very clear and easy to manage. The challenge will be instilling that habit to appeal to higher counsel, instead of reacting instinctively and letting that shield push things away. However you appeal to your spirit guides, ask them to raise your awareness, so that you react from your soul’s wisdom. When you find that process more natural, even automatic, you won’t carry any murky energy about your middle, and you won’t gather unwanted physical shielding there, either. With a healthy flow of energy through your chakra system, the balance of your skills and health are restored. Be well, Elizabeth.

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Thanks for your note, Sara. The story I am shown is in your chakras. Your root chakra, which is the first of the primary chakras along the spine and is situated at the perineum, is very overactive. The root chakra does what it sounds like–it roots you as a spiritual being into the form of this world. Mastery of this chakra involves gaining the basic survival skills to stay alive as a formed being, and psychologically it entails that you become aware that you are part of a tribe, in preparation for the mastery of the second chakra, which is all about how one relates (or doesn’t) to the tribe, itself. An overactive root chakra can indeed give the effect of being locked in fight-or-flee instinct, the perpetual feeling that you are being pursued even when there is no threat. The other major point about the root chakra that is vivid for you relates back to the tribe–your family unit. You have a birth family unit, the one you learned to survive in and prepared you for surviving in the world, and you also have created a family unit, your son, whom will be leaving the tribe soon. In your time of peril you have returned to your original tribe, and in doing so have brought your created tribe with you. It’s good to have a support system, but in this case, sharing living space with your birth tribe is only creating more inner conflict for you. Another facet of this overactive root is OCD–Obsessive Compulsive Disorder behaviour. Virgos are given to wanting order and turning themselves inside out to preserve it. I feel like this is something you generally have good habits on, but the constant trigger to preserve survival has created self-harming habits, mostly at a mental level–spinning scenarios in your head until panic ensues, allowing irrational thoughts to trump approaches you know are more healthy. Sometimes we best manage by stepping back. We think that disengaging and being present is a passive act, when in reality it is the most challenging active pursuit. This is your greatest challenge right now, and as you master it, so shall your son.

Because connections of tribe are so interwoven with the way Saturn is affecting you, I do feel that this experience is karmic. Distress with your birth family is being unconsciously acted out by your son. He is expressing your repressed stress, which is a long-standing pattern between you that has only increased with Saturn’s focus. He is not consciously aware that he is playing out this dynamic. I have a sense of spinning wheels. He is at the threshold of stepping out into the world as an individual, and he feels that he should be able to help you more with the household. His own stress cripples him. This ‘inability to provide’ is creating a block for him. He is mature enough to feel the pinch and longing to help, but he doesn’t have the experience or emotional grounding to effectively help. Few his age do. Teens deal with ‘spinning’ by acting out. Rebellion feels productive, despite that it only divides and conquers. Crazy as he may be driving you, disciplining his behaviour won’t improve circumstances. His underlying stress has to be soothed, and the best way to do that is by example. Strategically placed, “My emotions are my own to process,” in talks with him can unconsciously help him let go of responsibilities that are yours alone to manage. It will also send him the signal to let you be the parent. Conversely, it will send the signal to him to be the child, ie, to listen and observe.

Your guides are only showing me how this karmic stress is affecting your chakra system. Because everything in our etheric form is connected, so, too, is the internal and external. It’s a matter of time before it affects other aspects of your wellbeing, your health in particular. Regardless of what is going on in your external right now, it is imperative that you address the internal. When I observe the rest of your chakra system, I can just make it out for the overwhelming size and brightness of your root chakra. The lower chakras pertain to our earthly growth and maturity, while the upper chakras relate our spiritual growth and maturity. Etherically speaking, what needs to happen is the root chakra energy needs to be moved up the spine, balanced throughout, as it were, and the life force that comes in through the crown–the topmost primary chakra in the form, needs to be drawn down. Whatever meditative technique appeals to you, bringing your awareness to this process will be helpful. Visualize doing it, feel it moving, imagine that primal balance taking place. If you can go to an energy worker to do this work for you, or if you’re comfortable with doing it at a distance I can do such work. Either way, some self-maintenance is required. I do not get information on job or new residence, because giving attention to your life force is imperative. My sense is that in giving yourself some solitude and care, you will have better perspective and opportunity will arise from that.

It’s been a long haul with Saturn. I completely empathize with you, Sara. You have come through it, and through the aftershock you are regaining your power. Be open to the wisdom Saturn leaves you, and some sweetness will prevail.

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Mark’s form is very influenced by music, in that it activates and revitalizes him. Music must be in all levels of his being, not just in selected parts of his being. In essence, that commitment and honoring of music being a vital part of his life force has not been there on a structural and energetic level. Without that full integration, Mark’s cells aren’t completely speaking to each other. Certain synapses never get to fire, because they are not being energetically connected to music. The rabbit describes this as a case of “the right hand not knowing what the left hand is doing. While this is organic, it’s not a dynamic approach for Mark’s whole.”

I ask the rabbit how Mark can infuse music throughout his being, and he tells me that Mark must learn to feel the music and rhythm in all things—the food he eats, the air he draws and releases, even of the Earth’s resonance. There is an element of observing the wonder of music in these acts, as well as an element of humility. The ability to feel the pulse of all things at that level is his heart’s source. Mark can connect with this ability and music that is in all things by toning his chakras, meditating to draw that light and color into his body and moving it up the chakra system. The rabbit says that light and color are sound, and for Mark to learn to recognize the unique sound in every color.

I ask the rabbit how he is significant to the music in Mark’s life, and he tells me that rabbits are low and close to the ground. They feel the pulse of the Earth in their whole bodies at once. He says that when rabbits run, they are carried by the rhythm of the wind. As well, he says their ears tune into the star’s songs. Walking with Mark, the rabbit can help him to do the same. The rabbit is a powerful ally to speak with in meditation.

The rabbit says that Mark can work with him as a means of feeling the music in all things by honoring the simplicity of all things. He encourages Mark to allow the connection with what he perceives is blocking his abundance through music, and realize these blocks are friends and teachers. They do not impede his musical path. By being able to find and connect with the music in all things, including in himself energetically, Mark can draw that connection up his chakra system and life force, and allow it to not only strengthen his inspiration and ability to create, but to draw to him the people and situations who can help him further develop this connection.
Music abounds for you, Mark, as well as the support of it! Be well!

Thanks for your note!  My immediate feeling moving into the Dreamtime is that B can walk again, but the limitations on that ability are not about his physical condition at all; rather, they are completely emotional.  I have the sense of a huge backlogue of feelings that were never permitted to be interpreted into emotions, that is, feelings that have never been expressed.  They are presenting themselves in great part as a “weight” on the physical form, keeping it from moving about freely.  I literally have the feeing that he has had to be made still to deal with some aspects of his past.  I feel a tremendous sadness moving into my Lower World, which was there well before the car crash.  I am led by a soul aspect of B to a skeleton lying on the ground.  The skeleton has been severed in two, such that the spine is cut separating the lower two chakras from the rest of the system.  I notice also that the two severed points of the spine are capped with blue sapphires, which is an indicator of B’s connections to a multi-dimensional heritage and life purpose.  In other words, he is an earthly manifestation of a group of ethereal allies who are spiritual anchors for work he does here.  I also feel that the sapphires are very active but not at their highest potential.  When I touch the sapphires, the upper portion of the skeleton raises up and greets me.  He refers to the sapphires, saying, “I see you found my antenna…  I guess I wasn’t really using it anyway, so it may as well be unusable now…”  His response is very flippant, but I also feel a lot of disappointment in himself for so many events that occurred before the car crash that it’s overwhelming for me to feel it all.  He is carrying tremendous guilt, more than any one person should ever shoulder, and more than is possible for anyone to carry and be well.  I pick the skeleton up and with the soul aspect of B who is leading me, I take the skeleton (both parts) up for healing.

The skeletal manifestation of B gains healthy flesh.  I see him engaged with several soulbody workers in what looks like cosmic physical therapy on his new form, and the life force in his body moves well.  He looks over his shoulder at myself and the soul aspect and nods, grinning.  I move back down into my Lower World, holding space for who can give B the best insight in how to move forward in his life right now to come.  After a few seconds, I see about 40 souls come, each of them looking exactly like B.  I know this is his soulgroup coming to show support for him and to reconnect with him.  I have a strong impression of otherworldly or intuitive experiences that B has had throughout his life that he either did not pay attention to, or did not process as such, which stunted the development of his abilities and manifesting his life purpose.  I also feel that the unexpressed emotion I felt at the beginning of this journey is related to not honoring his intuitive abilities.  It seems that B chose to manifest on Earth the first time many lives ago, and was very excited about doing so.  He was in touch with his soulgroup and they were communicating, bringing things into being…  then the weight of 3D living began to wear down his exuberance.  Manifesting his soul’s intent began to be expressed through lives as a monk or priest, the socially accepted spiritual leaders of the day, whose lives were rote and incredibly unstimulating.  This planetary shift of souls into heavier density left B feeling that living his truth could only be done by carrying great burdens and through intense sacrifice. His excitement to grow here abated.  In short, over lives B encoded into himself the pattern that living his truth could not be fun.  The early years of this life were the result of a conscientious rebellion against that hard-nosed philosophy that resulted in having so much fun on the material plane, his connection to his soulgroup, thus life purpose, was abandoned.

Except that it wasn’t.  There really is no such thing as straying off one’s path.  The euphemism of ‘straying’ is only a mechanism to draw one’s awareness more clearly back to the fact that we create our paths with every step.  There is no more sacrifice.  It’s time for B to remember that he has always had the support of his soulgroup and the Multiverse!  In honoring that support he credits himself as a vital part of the whole process.  This process is about movement of the soul, which is the foundation for releasing stored up feelings.  For B to find the kind of energy workers who can help in that releasing process will be his first step in this life back to himself.  And I do mean step.

Be well!

Hi Nicole! Thank you for your note. I am not surprised that you can not find that kind of connection with another person, as you won’t. Connections are as unique as the people with which you have them. They are never duplicated. It is truly an art worth cultivating to learn to hold connections and people in their own value and beauty. Free yourself of that thought limitation right now, and that freedom in and of itself will allow other kindred souls to enter your life.

Your guides indicate to me that you are very air-oriented, with regard to always being lost in thought, fantasizing, possibly even dissociation to some degree. You love it. You fly high above the clouds, and you like it that way. That escape keeps you some how sated in day to day life. On a mundane level, this sense of floating in the clouds is incredibly indicative of an exuberant imagination, but there is a lack of being able to manifest that creative mind in form. You are not taking that precious imagination and transforming it into the things you want in your life. With regard to love and relationships, this floating/flying nature is very much connected with not manifesting relationships. What I am shown when I inquire about this trend is you making imprints of your palms in clay and passing them out. You want to leave an impression, but it’s as if you don’t really touch things, or connect with them… You just go through the motions of doing so. This non-connection is intentional, and a conscientious decision, as is the flying. When I ask how this not touching relates to the floating/flying, an aspect of your soul tells me that she is afraid to deeply connect with someone, because she fears she will not be able to fly anymore. In this aspect of you, even the most soulful resonant love feels like a heavy weight in her Solar Plexus and Sacral Chakra (third and second chakras) that literally tugs her out of the sky.

This is the thing: in the realm of love, you stand in your own way. You want the feeling of flight and freedom, and you also want to have a deep spiritual connection with someone who can be a partner to you. Somewhere in All That You Are is the belief that you cannot have both freedom and deep love at the same time. That is a source place to begin addressing the sense of not having direction right now. Moreover, there is a core thought pattern somewhere in there lulling you into feeling that freedom can only come at the expense of not manifesting your true Self. Again, there is the pattern that you cannot do both at the same time, when in truth, you cannot have true freedom, love, or growth until you manifest your true Self. In other words, that sense of just floating has lured you into a complacent comfortable state, which is logical. It’s a lot easier to be the passenger than to drive… unless of course you don’t like where things are headed…

The way that you must learn to drive is by learning to move your life force from that space of ideas through your body so that you can completely act on it and create what you want in your life. This act is completely dependent on 1) being conscientious that “active focusing of your own life force” is possible, and 2) setting up your thoughts, beliefs of yourself and the Universe, your way of living, all in support of manifesting your True Self. Believe it, create the space for that belief in your life by weeding out habits, thought patterns, beliefs that oppose it, and the evidence of that belief manifests. I highly suggest seeking the services of an energy worker or someone who can facilitate helping you bring your life force into your body and express it in all that you do. When you tune into yourself at that level, you will not only know the type of person that you are attracted to and want to be with, but you will naturally draw those people to you.

Be well, Nicole!
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I tell her that Linda in waking has asked me to learn more about her relationship with Tom, and she releases my hand rather curtly, and says, “O him.” She stands abruptly and goes back over to the bar. I ask her to talk to me about him, and she tells me there is nothing to talk about. I tell her that if she will tell me her concern about him, Linda in waking can resolve whatever the issues around him is, and she won’t have to get angry just from his name being brought up.

She’s a little annoyed with me at first, but then this aspect of Linda tells me that Linda in waking holds on to Tom, a guy who isn’t really sure of his place in the world, because that is the closest she has come to touching her own feminine power. There is a real love/hate thing happening with regard to feminine power in this aspect. Not only does this Linda see the feminine quality of power as weak, as she chooses not to embody that in herself, but she recognizes the need for it somewhere in her life, so she tries to incorporate it with frail men. This isn’t just about the quality of man she chooses, but it is about the dynamic of choosing frail men, as well. In other words, there is a self-fulfilled victim-like cycle happening here, and this Linda is thriving on that feminine soap opera drama these relationships bring her. In the short term they feed her feminine lack, but in the long term bring her masculine side that much more out of balance. And she knows she has Tom, whom she perceives as a sort of whipping boy, yet here she is at this bar full of men ‘beneath her status’, looking for a more suitable match. She knows it isn’t working. It’s in these bar moments that Linda in waking knows she needs and wants better. This cycle isn’t about Tom, or even that relationship. It’s about a woman who doesn’t fully hold her part of the Divine Feminine, and to compensate for that looks for her feminine power on an ego level in “broken” men.

When I ask this aspect of Linda what she really wants, she cries and tells me that she wants to feel ok being a little girl, that she never felt like she had an energetic opportunity to grow up as a female in this realm. For whatever reason, she at a very young age abandoned the part of her life force that is feminine, and developed her masculine energy instead. I don’t sense a trauma around this, just a very subtle decision to improve self however necessary for success and setting all of life, including relationships, up to meet this end. The choice was made with the highest intent, though short-sighted in how it would affect her Whole. This Linda indicates having gone through all the regular physical and emotional transitions that females do, but not truly connected to the power and spiritual initiations those experiences held. Puberty was empty. Menstruation onset was routine if not intrusive. Moving into dating and early relationships was a tribulation and even then not attracting the attention she really wanted. Seeing herself and her life as having been the experiences of a Goddess was missing, and still is.

What is exemplary is that this Linda has mastered holding masculine power, albeit not manifesting it in the most healthy way. Nonetheless, she has mastered it and in realizing that can hold that power better, and use the foundation from it to support bringing in the feminine balance. In essence, this Linda has never attracted a “strong” man, because she already was that for herself. But the men she has attracted have reflected her own lack of feminine power development. They have been reflecting back to her the qualities of herself that she has most wanted to change.

Part of this imbalance will shift just by Linda acknowledging her divinity as a significant feminine creature. Not just to validate the experiences of her life as one who has grown of her own accord, one who has met her goals, etc, but that she is a feminine force on this planet who possesses the ability to root here as a being who honors her masculine and feminine power. Some time spent in her own meditative approaches with the focus of bringing the Divine Feminine into her life force, waking her own femininity and letting that move through her form will raise her wellbeing, overall. As well, some chakra work, such as fire breathing and yoga, will really draw that kundalini energy upward and inward. Her clarity of thought will improve, as well as remove the need for bar episodes. Linda knows what she wants, and working with herself mind, body, soul, and emotion to bring that power in will manifest it. Doing this kind of work, when she looks in human mirrors, she will see the parts of herself and that person that are well, that have managed to find each other to share that wellbeing. Be well!

I have a sense of there being an energy block that is associated with manifesting deep romantic relationships in your life, or at least with being “stuck” with this one man. I am seeing that this block for you is related to your heart chakra, which oddly enough, traditionally appears as a glowing green light. When I look at yours, I see pink light, which tells me that you energetically do not have the go-ahead on this relationship. The pink light indicates to me that you have a great deal of Goddess energy sitting with you right now, but it has stopped at your heart. It has not been moved through your entire chakra system, which it must do. When energy stops at a chakra and doesn’t pass through, it creates a block in the energy flow, and in your life. Heart chakra blocks tend to revolve around issues of love, specifically compassion for All Things. This Goddess energy that is sitting in your heart is a wonderful thing, but it needs to be manifest. With it “stuck” here, issues are cropping up in your life.

Before I continue with the reading, I will explain a very general bit about the chakra system. In this channel down your spine are 7 primary chakras, or bridges that connect you to All That Is. Each bridge, or chakra, resonates to a different level of being, different qualities, different aspects of the Universes. Through this channel your life force (chi, prana, ki, energy…) flows from above the top of your head (crown) to the base of the spine (root), from Spirit. Life force also flows from the root upward to the crown, into All That Is (Spirit). What these unique currents of energy accomplish is key. The life force flowing into you from Spirit allows you to “harness” your power. In manifesting that power, you consciously return that energy to all of life by making all of your actions dedicated to it. At a simplistic level, that intake/outtake is how your chakra system works.

When you have a block, such as one at the heart chakra, it helps to identify where that block is occurring–on the way in (empowering) or on the way out (manifesting). This block for you lies in manifesting. You do not have a problem finding love and identifying it. You are aware of the way love moves in your life. However, there is something constricting your ability to truly allow it to come into being in the highest way that it can for you.

Examining this pink light at your heart, it feels very related to being in touch with Goddess from a mothering standpoint. By mothering, I mean nurture, standing back as the disciplined one in an arrangement, as the figure who will do the right thing when called to action. The thing is, this being the responsible one for everyone else, this standing back “waiting” behaviour is creating a block in your life force, and in your life. The time of waiting has passed. The occulation of Venus in Gemini has reconnected an incredible Crone Goddess power to the planet, and She’s in no holding pattern. She’s the mature Feminine Divine, and She’s got a mess to clean up in terms of our understanding of the Crone, the Great Mother, and Goddess. Our collective understanding of the Feminine Divine tends to be dark and identified with the shadow. She has been outcast from our cultures in any positive light, for the most part. As a result, we have lost our ability to value the elderly, wise “tough love” attributed to women who have the experience to know what time it is. That is no coincidence. The thing is, we have to be able to hold ALL of these archetypes–shadow, wise woman, self-effacing mother… and work through them at our own pace and peace to the fullness of holding our own Divine Feminine within.

You have already allowed this Goddess energy into your life force, but it’s not moved all the way through to your root, and it’s definitely not being reflected out in your actions. Do a bit of reading about the chakras, and in your meditative space visualize this energy around your heart, moving it down to the base of your spine. Connect to all the feelings, sensations and thoughts that come up while you do this. They will give you further indication of where your power lies, and of where it needs further attention. An excellent meditation on how to move it up the spine (to manifest) is Tom Kenyon’s “The Magdalen Manuscript” and the accompanying CD. This type of movement into manifestation is exactly what the book and CD meditations were created for. When you can move that powerful Goddess energy through you, and manifest it in your life, you are not going to stand by for anything. You will see that green light, and hold that pink Goddess aura all through your being. You won’t have to react from a defensive shadow, or defenseless maid, but from within your own place of balanced creation and manifestation. In short, you will know what you truly want, and that you shall have, because you will create it. I don’t know if this man will be part of what you create. But I do know that when you work with this energy, you will no longer question if you should wait. Be well!